February 2010
Don't Be Alarmed
This is an English assignment. DON’T BE ALARMED. I DO NOT PLAN ON KILLING MYSELF. The Serious One: Goodbye world. Goodbye to old friends kept dear, and new friends just made. Goodbye passionate kisses. Goodbye loving smiles… They always turned my legs to jelly. Goodbye deep, blue eyes… I could always lose track of time while staring into them. But I wasn’t supposed to be...
Bookends
Time it was and what a time it was it was, A time of innocence a time of confidences. Long ago it must be, I have a photograph Preserve your memories, they’re all that’s left you
January 2010
Lady Bowie Lives Again
For a special one day only!
For my mom not being a makeup artist, she sure did a good job.
“Roses are red, violets are blue, fuck you whore.”
– (500) Days Of Summer
“Tom: I love her smile. I love her hair. I love her knees. I love how she licks...”
– (500) Days Of Summer
Oh And
My face is dry.
Stupid acne wash.
I HATE YOU EXFOLIATING SCRUB BEADS WITH MEDICINE IN THEM!
CURSE YOU!
Probably
That left me with the worst feeling.
That gig sucked out my soul.
I’m not really sure why.
And that was sarcasm.
The only part I enjoyed was the walk to and from Foster Brothers.
It was good to talk to C.B. again without him glaring at me.
Although it’s kind of been like that for awhile now.
But tonight we actually kind of forgot about everything that happened to us in the...
The Tale Of Cox Alley
We had a DTeam gig
In Downingtown.
It was a birthday party for a bunch of little girls
In Downingtown.
We then proceeded to walk to the pizza place down the street
In Downingtown.
I annoyed them by saying
In Downingtown.
It was good to walk through a scary alley with a four of my good friends by my side
In Downingtown.
No Trespassing, No Swimming, No Fishing, No Ice Skating.
In...
Faith, Trust, & Pixie Dust
I’m struggling for words these days.
I can’t find them anymore.
Inspiration has dwindled away.
…
On another note, we have to write two suicide notes for English.
…
What kind of composition is that?
The sad thing is…
I know everything I want to put on it.
Yeah. Great. Break My Heart. It's So Easy To Do,...
Just leave me alone.
I’ll go fall back in love with the young Dick Van Dyke.
If You Forget
I want you to know one thing. You know how this is: if I look at the crystal moon, at the red branch of the slow autumn at my window, if I touch near the fire the impalpable ash or the wrinkled body of the log, everything carries me to you, as if everything that exists, aromas, light, metals, were little boats that sail toward those isles of yours that wait for me. Well, now, if...
I Don't Want To Tell Anyone
Especially not my mother.
She would worry too much.
She already worries about me enough.
My student gym teacher looks like Dan.
You know, the one who died this summer.
I haven’t said his name in a long time, in fear it’ll start me off again. I haven’t even looked at it typed or written in a very long time.
I walked into gym 3rd period, and I couldn’t breathe.
Worst...
“(talking about Tales of Symphonia)
…And do you remember how hard it was...”
– The Guy At Game Stop
Ugh
You always get offline when I say something really awkward.
I can’t help but think it’s my fault.
I should just never speak to you again.
I’ll ignore you at rehearsal. For the next three months.
Shouldn’t be that hard…
Right?
“Anything you dream is fiction, and anything you accomplish is science, the whole...”
– Ray Bradbury (via booklover)
Hair Color Went Kind Of Wrong
If you can’t tell, there’s red dye in my hair. It was expecting it to look much different.
“Ever have one of those dreams where you’re, like, running really slow when...”
– Draus
“In my dream, Dalton started the mutiny of ‘Let’s jump up and grab a...”
– Draus
If You Come At Me Tomorrow
It’s not even my fault.
You two talk about that constantly.
Listen to yourselves.
I don’t have dreams about pushing you two off buildings just because…
Stop pretending like you know so much.
It drives me insane.
And stop obsessing.
I’m not one to talk, I obsess over some things, but not like you two.
Whatever.
Say whatever the hell you want.
I fight my own...
Midterms
This is great!
No really, actually.
This is not great.
This means studying until my eyes glaze over.
And the start today.
Oops.
“If Back to the Future were made today (in 2010), Marty would have travelled back...”
– kottke (via thatisawesome)
cool concept to think about.
“Lights will guide you home, and ignite your bones, and I will try to fix you.”
– Fix You
Sometimes
I liked it better the way you and I were before.
Now your name is word vomit.
It keeps coming up.
You Must Be Terrified
I get a smiley face as a return to me spilling.
That makes me feel astounding.
But don’t read into that.
Dear Diary
I’m your girl?
Really?
You consider me that much of a friend?
That makes me jump with joy.
You’ve just made my crappy day.
I could tell you why it’s crappy,
but I’d like you to ask.
It’d be nice if you started our conversation for once, dork.
My Mom Acts Rather Strange Sometimes
She made me make a YouTube channel in case people discover me for my talent.
Or something.
Was that how she phrased it?
Probably.
I'm Lost For Words
I’d like to say something profound and deep
but all I can think of is insults for the kid who sits in front of my in History.
What an asshole.
That Man Who Writes To Me
You’re still W, even if we don’t talk as much as I’d like to.
I miss talking in code with you, you dork.
I hope you’re having fun with whatever you’re doing.
And I hope we talk again real soon.
~B Shannon.
Something Rather Odd
My dad came home from the East today. Not east as in New Jersey, but East as in China, Japan, and Korea.
He’s been to places that I can only ever dream of going.
The farthest I’ve ever gone is Germany.
He’s been all over the world.
I don’t know why I thought of this, but I wonder if my parents are even in love anymore.
It’s been a long time since they’ve...
Ten Second Head Start
Ten.Nine.Eight.Seven.Six.Five.Four.Three.Two.One.
Go.
Run.
Break free.
Leave this all behind,
just like you said you would.
I Was A Hero Saving The World
When I was little I fell into a toxic waste vat and turned into a super hero.
I saved the world.
I could fly.
I could shoot lasers out of my eyes.
I could move objects with my mind.
Along came my partner in crime.
Along came my biggest enemy.
I loved them both with such a passion that it scared me.
I could never do my enemy harm.
I could never leave my partner.
I had to chose.
In the...
You Must Live To Put Me Down
I do something, and heaven forbid I do it well.
Because you come along and do it better.
Or try to, anyways.
Dear Dream Journal
You two were two of the bravest people I have ever met.
You sacrificed yourself.
You knew you were going to die.
I wasn’t going to die, I was part of the good side.
To the first one, I gave him his beer glass. He was overjoyed. He thought he’d lost it forever. He smiled up at me from his spot in the water and looked at me like he wanted to love me, but he knew he couldn’t....
Manipulative.
I’ll have you know that I think you’re jealous.
Call me stuck up.
Call me a bitch.
I don’t care.
I’m good at what I do.
Nothing you say can put me down.
You’re just jealous.
Call me anything you want.
But say them to my face, you coward.
That Was You?
I had it in my head for the longest time that it was her.
I’m sorry.
And I do miss her as a friend. Maybe we can start that back up again.
I Learn Something New Everyday
That’s cool.
You don’t like me.
Awesome!
Now I can go on about my life and continue not to care what you think.
Like I have been.
Duh.
It'll Go Down Like A Lead Zeppelin
I’m going to forget last night happened.
It was awful.
The end.
Gone.
I Wish You Stole Glances At Me
Or, you know, talk to me.
That’d be the best thing.
I don’t like being ignored.
It makes me feel unimportant.
If we’re going to be in the same show together for three whole months, we better get busy on becoming friends.
2 A.M.
Screams.
That was either the funniest or the longest evening of my life.
I get jealous too easily when it comes to him.
Marriage
When two people decide to spend the rest of their lives together.
Is that what you decided, too?
I don’t know why I’m even thinking about that.
After all, we’re not good friends or anything.
Unless you think we are.
I think
That you think
That I’m an awkward loser who needs to shut up and quit bothering you.
“To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all.”
– Oscar Wilde (via fuckyeahplacebopills)
The Bags Under My Eyes Have Bags Under Them
And my shift key is really starting to dislike me. It’s actually really irritating.
I can’t type when I’m tired.
MyFingersAreClumsy.
