March 2010
February 2010
My Dad Recites Me This Poem Sometimes
Whose woods these are I think I know. His house is in the village, though; He will not see me stopping here To watch his woods fill up with snow.
My little horse must think it queer To stop without a farmhouse near Between the woods and frozen lake The darkest evening of the year.
He gives his harness bells a shake To ask if there’s some mistake. The only other sound’s the...
“How does it feel?
I feels exactly like one of those dreams in which you...”
– Audrey Niffenegger: The Time Traveler’s Wife
“It’s hard being left behind. I wait for Henry, not knowing where he is,...”
– Audrey Niffenegger: The Time Traveler’s Wife
“Maybe I’m dreaming you. Maybe you’re dreaming me; maybe we only...”
– Audrey Niffenegger: The Time Traveler’s Wife
“It’s dark now and I am very tired. I love you, always. Time is nothing”
– Audrey Niffenegger: The Time Traveler’s Wife
“There is only one page left to write on. I will fill it with words of only one...”
– Audrey Niffenegger: The Time Traveler’s Wife
What A Wonderful Life, I Think As She Smiles
That line still gets me every time I read that story.
I can’t believe I wrote it.
I Haven't Said Much Lately
I think my depression is kicking in.
Keep It Greasy So It Go Down Easy
In the SOR superlatives, I was voted the person with the “Darkest Personality.”
…It pains me to say some people only voted for one other person
And I won by a landslide.
I need to change how I act.
As soon as possible…
Finally Done
There’s most of it, anyways.
I can’t believe I still had all the pieces, and the manuals!
There’s more to it off to the sides and behind it, but I couldn’t get it all in one picture.
Legos
I recently found my collection of Legos.
I’m rebuilding them in my living room.
I’m loving life.
But somehow, it makes me sad..
Dear Elsewhere
Take good care of my grandfather.
Even after seeing you in the casket, I couldn’t believe it.
Towards the end, I stared aimlessly at you.
You looked like you had a smile on your face.
I kept hoping that maybe you would pop up and laugh at us for thinking you were dead.
But of course
that didn’t happen.
I saw Dan’s wife and his family.
One was proud of what I wrote for Dan...
“Phil: You’re all the porn I need.”
– Modern Family
And In The End
I caught a glimpse of the room in you house.
It was hard not seeing you. It felt so weird. It’s still so unreal.
I miss you. I’ll never ever forget you.
I wish I could have seen you this Christmas, but I guess the heart surgery was for the best… Or not, considering.
This is so hard to write. I have so many thoughts swimming around in my head.
I don’t think I can face...
I Got My Twisted Wish
I get to see my family.
I just wish it was under better circumstances =/
Past Tense
It’s hard to use when talking about someone who’s no longer living.
You catch yourself and try to fix it.
But reality hasn’t sunken in yet.
Suddenly My Problems Matter Not
I can’t even bring myself to say what happened.
A heart attack in the shower…
Why is it always a heart attack…
Calm Down?
Yeah, keep rubbing it in my face, why doesn’t he?
Look, I was in a bathroom.
I WANTED TO KEEP MY DAMP PANTS ON.
We went in the SNOW. I didn’t bring SNOW PANTS. And I didn’t think the snow was THAT DEEP.
AND I FELL. A LOT.
OF COURSE I TOOK MY PANTS OFF. TO BE PUT IN THE DRYER.
His mother insisted. Mothers tend to care about THE WELL BEING OF PEOPLE.
Just stop.
This...
But
My inability to be wrong, always be right, always get what I want, wanting to feel superior even though that’s a pretty stupid thing to do (Hypocrite!), and feeling indifferent…
Well.
That sometimes gets in the way.
I’m not good for him. Doesn’t he get it?
It's Up To My Waist Out There
And I’m over my head in here.
If he would do anything to take the pain away, I would do anything to get what I had back.
I Swear To The Highest Power
I’m so glad I hid you on my Stalker Feed.
Your obnoxious posts cluttered it.
They are so annoying.
Seriously?
I mean, come on…
This Is Me Right Now
Cuttooth I wanna be in the wallpaper Or run away to the foreign legion I wanna be in the wallpaper Or run away to the foreign legion And as the tanks roll into town As the tanks roll into town A little bit of knowledge will destroy you A little bit of knowledge will destroy you As the tanks roll into town As the tanks roll into town A little bit of knowledge will destroy you A little bit of...
That's New
I shake uncontrollably when I’m nervous.
I used to think it was because I was cold.
Now I know the truth.
How Can I Get Any Rest Now
Someday, you will get the best of me, oh someday, probably when I’m old and grey, I’m lying in my bed and I will soon be put to rest now.
Sunshine, I’d really like to tell you, oh my sunshine even though your skies are blue you’re drying up my bed, how can I get any rest now?
(500) Days Of Love.
Dear World,
I am so sorry I’ve not shined down on you lately. I should appreciate you more. My love for you used to light up your whole sky. I’m not sure what happened… I wanted you to be filled with my light. Maybe that’s it.
Maybe I tried to shove to much of who I am onto you.
And that must have changed you.
I should have been more careful. Maybe you’ll find a...
“Daniel Connelly: We’re so arrogant, aren’t we? So afraid of age, we...”
– P.S. I Love You
