“She cuts my skin and bruise my lips, she’s everything to me.
She tears my clothes and burns my eyes, she all I want to see.
She brings the cold and scars my soul, she’s heaven sent to me.”—Love Burns - Black Rebel Motorcycle Club
I returned to camp a week after I left, because my brother and sister had Day Camp that week. I remember seeing Lizzie, the Day Camp counselor who was in my cabin, and I asked where they were so I could say hi. She said I could go to the cabin and look. So, I walked on over to Shoshone and waltzed right in and checked the schedule. Arapaho and Shoshone were having a cookout in Deep Woods. Excited to not only see my cabin, but his as well, I ran. I ran and ran, and slipped and fell in the mud. I could hear their voices coming from around the corner. I brushed myself off and walked right into the opening, and he was the first to see me. How excited he was to see me again.
And who knew he’d be that excited to see me again two years later.
“That’s what it was like to be alive. To move about in a cloud of ignorance; to go up and down trampling on the feelings of those…of those about you. To spend and waste time as though you had a million years. To be always at the mercy of one self-centered passion, or another. Now you know- that’s the happy existence you wanted to go back to. Ignorance and blindness.”—Our Town by Thornton Wilder (via i-wandered-like-a-cloud)
“Goodbye, Goodbye, world. Goodbye, Grover’s Corners… Mama and Papa. Goodbye to clocks ticking… and Mama’s sunflowers. And food and coffee. And new-ironed dresses and hot baths…and sleeping and waking up. Oh, earth, you’re too wonderful for anybody to realize you.”—Our Town by Thornton Wilder (via i-wandered-like-a-cloud)
Then as it was, then again it will be An’ though the course may change sometimes Rivers always reach the sea Flyin’ skys of fortune, each have separate ways On the wings of maybe, downy birds of prey Kind of makes me feel sometimes, didn’t have to go But as the eagle leaves the nest, it’s got so far to go
Changes fill my time, baby, that’s alright with me In the midst I think of you, and how it used to be
Did you ever really need somebody, And really need ‘em bad Did you ever really want somebody, The best love you ever had Do you ever remember me, baby, did it feel so good 'Cause it was just the first time, And you knew you would
Do your eyes not sparkle, Senses growing keen Tastin’ love along the way, See your feathers preen Kind of makes makes me feel sometimes, Didn’t have to go We are eagles of one nest, The nest is in our soul
Fixin’ in my dreams with great surprise to me Never thought I’d see your face the way it used to be Oh darlin’, oh darlin’
I’m never gonna leave you. I never gonna leave Holdin’ on, ten years gone Ten years gone, holdin’ on, ten years gone
Right. Of course. Let’s all blame Shannon for everyone’s fucking problems! Because it can never be YOUR fault. It ALWAYS has to be mine. You and your fucking double standards. College did turn you into a doucherocket.
Just remember to breathe. But there’s not time for such trivial matters such as that.
Hair: Grow faster. Lines: Get more comfortable with them. Homework: Do it. Friends: Don’t push them away. Sanity: Lost it. Devin: Go see him. Soon. Soonsoonsoon. Jealousy: Control it. Our Town: Buy a wig. Get extensions. Anything to get the role (my dream role) of Emily. NaNoWriMo: Plan it.
Fucking hell. I have so much pent up anxiety bouncing off the walls of my head. This can only end badly.